Meaning of life

Each day we wake up looking for the meaning of life.
When do we exactly find it?
Do we ever even find it?
Everyday is a challenge to overcome your greatest fears.
For me that would be finding the strength to trust again.
The strength to forgive and forget, to move on and leave behind the secrecy that I hide behind.
I hold this persona that im fine, I show people that im strong, but im meerly just a coward hiding behind a face.
I wander through life searching for answers to questions.
Questions that I start to wonder if they are even meant to be answered.
I guess everything in life happens for a reason, or so everyone continues to say.
But how much pain must someone suffer to figure out that no matter what happens it gets better.
Life isn't allways the way we dream it to be, but sometimes what we don't expect can be even better.
No one is perfect, and we dont expect them to be.
Isn't it inevitable that life not be perfect also?

Guidance

There are times when life may seem like a black hole, a challenge impossible to overcome.
But the true challenge is to get out of your abyss of sadness and doubt and find the good in yourself and the light throughout the dark.
We all go through times when we must overcome the immoral around us and let the adequate meaning of life be what guides us to our destiny. A feeling that all feels, no matter what the situation. Pain is cosmic, its inevitable, without the hurt the good things aren't nearly as flawless as they would be. Not everything can be neutral, there has to be evil for there to be good. But good or evil, you have the freewill to make a decision. Your decision is merely based upon your actions and rather you choose to follow the light or the shadow.

Living lost

My whole life Iv'e had moments where I was down and regreted ever entering this world.
But then I remebered that lifes not easy you just have to make the best of the worst. It's true when people tell you not to take what you have for granted, because there are people out there who have way less and have it way worse, and you never know how quickly what you have can be taken away.
Life is a long journey that every person finds them self lost in at one point or another. Is it possible to be the lost from the beginning? Your whole life spent trying to find where you "belong" in this spinning confusion that we live in. I've never really understood where I should be or where I should go, I just do what is in the moment. I think about the future, then I find that im thinking more about avoiding it rather than controling it.Somedays I find that not only am I avoiding the thought of where my future will bring me, but I also find myself avoiding me. I feel loving and caring and maternal. These qualities I focus upon everyone else, but myself. I feel I can fix other people, shelter thier needs. But how can shelter someone else when I myself need to be sheltered. In the back of my mind I know that It is me and only me that that will be there in the end. But I feel that some how if I fix everyone else and make them strong then that will make me strong. I feel like a coward letting things that have happened and people from the past control me. I feel so many differat things, but expressing these is where i find myself inspired. Inspired to make beauty.
Lifes funny like that, you get beauty from pain, and lust from love.